Gutted!

DP and myself have come to a compromise. It was one I suggested a year ago but didn't go down too well in his mind - possibly because back then he had a lot of work and two workers as opposed to a distinct lack of work and no workers when he decided it was a "great idea".  The idea is for me to find part time work and for him to cut back on his hours (something he was going to do anyway before he worked himself into an early grave!).  Then we'd both share the care of the kids looking after them on the days that we weren't working and the other was.  I started the job hunt that day and came up with two wonderful jobs that I really did want to do - one was a  bit of a challenge and the other I could do with my hands tied behind my back.  Unfortunately having been out of the workforce for 4.5 years other people don't see my abilities in the same way - even DP thinks I'll have to apply for 100 jobs before I get one - something "I" am not used to having usually been at the top of the hiring list for my positions - and even when I challenged myself I usually managed to get into the top five (and sometimes go the job).

So imagine my dismay when I got turned down for the "challenging" position via email - not even an interview.  Then today - another email "I'm sorry you haven't succeeded at this time" from the one I did get the interview for - gutted.  Of course I had another six to apply for sitting on my watchlist on Trade Me - only to discover that I should have applied for them when I had the chance - only two haven't been filled.  So I have two from Trade Me and two from the local rag and I may approach an old employer and see what's happening with her - maybe she'll have something for me - we'll see I guess.  I was disappointed but I replied thanking the company for their time - which helped me feel better and then I threw myself into bathing the kids and making dinner.  They obviously were not meant to be :o)