Some Days are Diamonds, Some Days are Pearls - and some are just granite.

The kind that's too sharp to walk over with bare feet.  It serves a purpose but it's just really painful and annoying LOL.

I've just had a few of those - mostly self inflicted but assisted by the inconvenient timing that is Murphy's Law at it's best.

Be warned - there is a lot of blather in this content - a pouring forth of some thoughts I just needed to get out.  Personally if I was anyone else reading this - I'd stop here LOL

I create my own stress - of that I am absolutely certain - no doubts whatsoever.  I procrastinate to the nth degree and then I panic!  I used to make equestrian browbands to order - just a little hobby sort of business on the side of my full time employment - I loved making the browbands but I HATED the pressure of getting them completed within a timeframe.  I do this with everything with a deadline - procrastinate until I have to spend nights like last night working until 1.30am to finish an article by the already pushed out deadline of today.  And I LOVE writing so I don't quite know why I put it off and put it off.  I have another article that has been pushed over to the next issue so I have NO excuse not to get it written in time.  In fact I've given myself a deadline of the end of this week.  Every time I procrastinate I always stress about the people I'm letting down.  It occurs to me that the person I let down the most is myself.

Of course, like this last week, Murphy's Law seems to raise it's head to contribute to my woes.  On Wednesday my pc crashed and I a 2 year old boy would not leave me in peace to get it sorted.  Really I don't blame him I think when I pull away he just needs me more - and I was stressed so not paying him enough attention.  It wasn't until Thursday that I actually realised that I'd completely forgotten about Himself's birthday - the day before.  I felt awful - I NEVER forget that sort of thing.  With the pc on the blink I really started stressing - two articles due on Friday not to mention I'd just been sent a few transcription pieces - the first after months of nothing - last thing I wanted to do was let my "employer" down.  And then I started stressing about what I could have lost on my hard drive.  Luckily it still works in safe mode and I was able to do a long overdue backup - I never learn!  Plus my wonderful father was able to lend me his laptop - yet again so I was back in the swing of things - and then my email decided not to deliver messages right away and I missed out on more transcription (which was more a case of feeling I was letting people down again although the money is much needed).

Friday brought the article reprieve but of course I still found myself working late last night to get it finished and my weekend transcription wasn't sent off until today. 

Somehow I have got to get it together.  I think I need to put together a set but realistic To Do list each month and make sure I acheive it.  Somehow I can see that setting this goal and sticking to it could be something that would absolutely improve all of our lives.